yup. abit too late but i'd manage to get myself hooked up with online game. it's called star dream (note: direct translation from chinese) which is kinda like RO, except it's in chinese. you can go over to its official site to check it out or even better, get the installation free and then get hooked up like me. hahahaha... i'm so bad. but no harm playing it XD.

so.. i've found one of the keys. like Fistandantilus said, i've still got 15 days to recover it. damn. at least i dun have to break 2 doors now.. *mumble mumble*

about the library book, seems that they are doing stock checking in MMU so they din see my renewal request >w< and guess wat? today they renewed for me and my previous fines (2 bucks) was cleared!! wakakakkaak... so good. hope they do stock checking every month. XD

My dad's gonna bring me back to melacca with his van, which also carried all my stuff back home when the holidays started, which will also means hours of tormenting heat again. haiz.. i think i'll have to bear with it, since i've gotten my wish after months of nagging. Dad's finally bringing along my good old bike to melacca in that van! Wee~~ then i can go everywhere i want already. shhh... dun tell my dad k?

now i've got to do a list of stuff i wanna bring back to melacca.. my cloths, pillows, mattress, computer table, cds, my precious system unit, my backpack fill with goodies (dun ask), my electrical wire stuff, a kettle, maybe a microwave... jz ignore this part cos i'm doing a check list~ oh yeah, helmet! can't forget that XD

think that's it then.. Melacca here i come!! in 1 week or so...

i'm kinda excited when we were able to do course registration on the 18. i was really glad that i've managed to plan my time table after refering to my frens'. but then the awful thing is that MMU server sucks. i got logged in at 3.01pm and yet the system was slow like hell. guess it can't support so many ppl at a time. that was fine with me, since everyone else were going to experience the same thing. But later, i was damn pissed off. i jz can't believe it! after registering a subject successfully, the second class was already full! wat the hell?! that sub was my only choice and if it's full, my time table will be ruined! Argh!!! The loading is so slow yet i've got to reschedule again in that short period. So, in 1 hour i finally worked out another time table and register them under duress. crappy time table for my first beta trimester. jz great.

After that, i jz remembered i haven't renewed my book from the library. shit. i went to the library homepage, and found that i did, but jz haven't been processed. When i scroll down the page, it seemed that i've renewed it more than 3 times... ORZ now i'm going to be broke. 30 days times 20 sen = 6 bucks.. i'm gonna die!! *whine..*

Besides that, i think i've lost my room key. I'm so damn forgetful! *bang the wall*
So i went all over the house and search again. found 1 key in my bag, but another one still missing.. i'm dead. think have to break into my own room when i get back to melaka. *sigh*

Those aside, i still can't believe i'm the president of EMINA starting next trimester. wat do i have to do? wat about member registration day?! wat about the commitees? *panick, walk to and fro, trip and fall flat on the floor* I'm dead...

so.. still 2 more weeks before i get back to melaka.. suddenly got lots of stuff to settle and i dunno where to start. *scream of frustration*

dad recently got his hands on a programme for database. he was nagging me to relearn microsoft access cos he wanted me to do him a customer database so that he can retrieve their records easily. Thus my quest begin with googling tutorial for Access. i read and then kinda understood and recalled wat we did in PCA0015(that's my computer application sub code) but then i wanna apply the little knowledge i had, i was stuck. too bad, i told my dad. So he got a programme called quickbook which specialize for database and financial management. I was too lazy to read the tutorial for the programme but my dad was quick. he got the programme installed and everything ready for me. I can see him smirking and having the you-can-run-but-you-can't-hide look. finally i surrendered and accepted the mission of typing the 200 pages record book's info into the database. It's so damn tedious and time consuming, especially my typing isn't as fast as kristine's *sobsob*

until today (been typing since 2 days ago) i've only completed half of the book, and here my dad was giving me cold blanket by telling there's lots more record books in the shop... i felt like fainting and then withered off. That's the reason there's no updates lately and no coloring or drawing etc.. haiz. i dun think i can escape the typing 'heaven' i'm currently in now. jz finished 30 pages... dunno how many pages more to go... *drop dead*

oh yeah.. tomorrow's the time for alpha to beta course registration. *fumble around* Wat the hell!! where's my time table?! Aarrghhhh...

P.S jz now i saw that apek again.. and guess wat? he lived in my taman!! WTF?! *Double shocked*

Was drawing this whole evening and here it is~ that kawaii kitty that jumped on my lap. but then the real one was 10 times cuter that this so try imagine it XD

Now i'm really convicted that it's true. In my last post i mentioned about almost banging into a dog and a car, and today i got into an accident with a motor. jz great.

Early in the morning, i woke up at 7sth cos dad and i are going to penang airport to fetch my aunt and uncle, who had been in Hong Kong for the past week. Since dad picked up his fren to go along and also to keep him company during the journey, i've had the chance to sleep all the way until the airport XD. After picking up them, and also baggage fulled of yummy stuff, we got off to the town cos dad and his fren wanna get hardware stuff. Then we went to prangin mall for a stroll while dad's fren, who's a com wiz and my com's saviour, went to get his hardware stuff too. I walked around browsing and got some ps2 games for sis and then a watch. My youngest sister wanted my fake swatch very badly last time so i gave her, thus now i'm getting a new one for myself. Later on, we went for lunch before we went back taiping.

I slept again, until we were home. Then i took my sister to tuition, safely. On the way back, i went to the comic shop again to check for new comics besides chatting with my fren. Then, the journey back home was smooth too, and i'd never expect that i'd get into an accident 2 hours later. by 6pm, i went out again, being the amat at home. haiz...

I went to fetch my youngest sis first, since she's off at 6. after that i got the other one and went back home with the same route, thinking of going to a bookstore on the way cos liz (my sis) wanna get a liquid paper. so then, on the fateful junction which i past thru every single day, i drove straight like normal and suddenly this motor jz appear at my left and got really close to me, and still getting closer and closer until we banged. he scratched my kancil and he fell. I was horrified. wat the hell?! i saw him fall all the way and i got stunned. i jammed the brake, suddenly realizing i'm in the middle of the road, and so I frantically move to the side. I ran out of the car, saw the Ah Pek (a chinese old man) and was worried till death. he stood up, Thank God, and started picking up his stuff scattered on the road. he was limping abit but i dun think he's seriously injured. he told me to pick up his smashed bike and i did so. I was too frighten to think, and my brain stopped working that moment. He insisted that he's right, and i'm wrong. I was scared like hell and i couldn't think and din argue. My sis stood up for me *touched* but to no avail. So we give in and we follow him (his bike still working) to a motor repairing shop and checked the damages.

I was again terrified as the mechanic told me it cost 130 bucks. It's too much for my budget! i've only got 20 bucks, but liz got 60 and the other 70. I called mom, but she sound so calm and nonchalant.. it's not helping me anyway, but she said my uncle will come and settle this. So we waited, and it felt hell long before he came while i was like ant on hotpan. The Ah Pek was outrageous. he wanted me to pay extra 100 bucks for medical fee besides the motor repair fee. It's not fair! I dun even think it's my fault but i'm still paying him, and now he wants more?! it's plain bullying i tell you! But all this while i was too afraid even to whisper out my complains. My sis kept on telling each other he's fraud and he's picking on us etc. but we are jz kids. We are helpless, and i felt so the most. I'm a coward. In the end, even my dad came cos my uncle can't settle it cos he's mad at the Ah Pek. Dad was superb. he's settle the argument smiling composedly and he din get mad and fight or anything. That Ahpek still insist on the medical fee, and dad compromised. in the end dad gave 130 to the mechanic and 60 to that ah pek and case closed.

I cried on the way back home, driving with my sis in the car. I was frightened, and was still shaking but i din cry because of the accident. I cried because i felt so helpless without my dad, without an adult. Although i'm already 19, which is considered an almost-adult, i still can't do a single thing on my own. I used to think that after living on my own for about a year, i'd grown up already, but i found out that i'm jz the same brat i was during secondary school, or even primary school, if that matters. I even can't handle a small thing like this! I hate myself, being so weak and helpless. All this while i should have at least know that i'm such a coward but no, i'd overestimated myself. I'm a weakling. A crybaby. A useless sister who needs her younger sisters to stand up for her, and hide behind them, shivering.

I'm not crying anymore. but it still hurts. Nothing changed, i'm still a helpless child and i know now. Mom and Dad aren't back yet but i'll try to muster the strength to face them, like nothing happened. At least i have to act brave even if i'm not. i can't cry in front of them. they'd worry about me. Pls, pls God, let me be brave...

But yesterday's driving out nearly scared the lights out of me... As usual, i drove my sis to tuition, except that i was dressed in my new black turtle-necked shirt and beige long pants with lots of pockets (sis: that's mine, mind you! =__=) when usually i'll jz be in my fade off tshirt and shorts cos i was going to see my previous english teacher i loved very much, who is now my sisters'.
(sidenote: she's the best english teacher ever *gyrate around sprinkling confetti* and she's the one who got me into the standard of english i am right now *felt extra proud of her*)

Ahem, back to the drive... As i was talking with my sis while driving, suddenly this dog at the industrial roadside came running across the road! At first i was thinking it should be sane enough to stop, but no! it went straight ahead with me speeding closer and closer to it. Panicked, i jammed the brakes and shrieked as our distance closed in within split second. Part of my mind blanked, whereas the working part kept on conjuring horrible thoughts about wat would happen next, and i was horridly expecting to run on that poor animal any second. Everything happened so fast that i couldn't think but miraculously it pulled off from its own death! i dunno if dogs had sanity but i do think it saved this dog here. or maybe it's jz instinct. Watever it is, it saved the dog, prevented me from killing a precious life and my conscience from killing me at night... Phew! wat a relief.

the rest of the route was safe, except when i was going around a huge lorry parked at the side of the road which still blocked my path, a car speeding suddenly appeared with the driver talking without handsfree set. Curse you! i hit the brakes again, not even a minute before i last used it. the driver avoided me, and i glared at her with my eyes spitting fire. people nowadays.. *swearing*

We finally reached my teacher's house and my sis went in first as i park the kancil. She was in her room but later came out and saw me, eyes filled with surprised delight. i was happy to see her again too and she gave me a motherly hug. We chatted about everything, about her wonderful trip to china, the hardworking but pitiful ppl in the rural part of china, her souvenirs, and how i've been doing in Uni, and about my course... too bad the tuition class had to start before we can finish talking XD. So i left the house after bidding a warm goodbye to her and sped off to the comic shop.

It's been a routine, after being an amat i'll drive over to the comic shop to hunt for new arrivals. Chatted with my frens working over there and found out taiping ppl really dun know computer in general. *sweat* i was asked about hp to pc data transfer, and when i talked about the usb port, they dun show a clue about it... haiz. To be honest, i really got to know that much about computers and downloads stuff and graphic designing programs only after going into MMU, so at least MMU is doing some good to ppl after all XD

hmm.. that's it then.. going to sketch out the kitty and color it orange XD

dun know wat biological reaction is going on in my body today, not that i want to know either, but then i jz felt tired. weird. Here i am at home doing nothing except sitting around and sticking at the com. You might think maybe it's sumthing i ate that made me feel like this but i'm jz eating oh so healthy recently at home; jz had bread and butter with the spirulina cereal drink for breakfast(it actually tastes good...) and then no lunch cos i felt like not eating.. then dinner, home cooked XD. did abit jogging at about 5.30pm but that's not the cause for my fatigue.. haiz. After dinner i dropped dead on the sofa while mom drive both my sisters to tuition. and i got up at 10pm when my dad came back from work and wake me up. 2hours of sleep.. so now i'm abit refreshed and wait.. how the hell am i going to sleep at night now?! ish.. i'll stay up late then XD

yesterday i had a small encounter with a cute kitty. it was a heavy downpour when mom took us out to eat, without umbrella. then in the hawker stall, we ordered bak kut teh (it's pork stew with some medical herb flavour.. nice~) and waited. there's a small kitten with orange fur came by, so my sis kinda lured it near us. it had real round eyes, orange iris and a real imploring look, which make me almost wanna touch it but din, due to hygienic reasons and mom being there XD.

After a while, we started to dig in our meal ravenously. Suddenly i felt weight on my lap, and it felt warm. I was shocked and saw the kitty crouching on my lap, still looking at me with that bright imploring eyes... *sigh* maybe i've such a benign nature that i can't even make a kitty stay a distance from me? *puking sounds* so i jz carry it to the ground, go to the stall to wash my hands as i past the couple of hawkers smiling at the incident. Well, when i almost finished my meal, the kawaii kitty was still hovering around our table with the big eyes. i jz can't refrain from succumbing to it's cuteness.. so i dropped some meat for it XD. It walked around for a while after it'd finished eating, then it went under the table and started to scratch the floor.. then it flop down and curl up into a fur ball! i was jz this close from hugging it and taking it back home XD

so this is it.. except my dad went to a closed down cyber cafe to repair stuff, and collected back home 2 computer tables and 4 asus display cards XD he's jz great, isn't he? XD

did summore coloring with the pic i drew in photoshop cs2 XD and yeah.. though it's not the same at all, it's me. *haiz* i've gotta get help on coloring these days..

hmm.. currently really bored. So i'll jz list down wat i've done so far during the holidays...

jz finished a webpage design for Wounds, a fren in taiwan who's too busy to do anything now except drawing XD. here's a link. then i've done that first coloring in previous post, fixed my com and installed 10gb of necessaries in my system drive, fixed my photoshop (previously it got screwed and can't display chinese characters) by installing the all new cs2! haha.. got afew new features here and there.. but haven't tried it out. Had been doing regular exercise everyday.. but still sleep late at night and wake up at noon XD.

My daily routine: wake up and eat lunch, collect clothes, daydream abit, then bathe my coco (he's a chihuahua) and then me bathe, then stick to the com doing trivial stuff until evening when i'm suppose to drive sis to tuition or watever, then come back with comics and read, exercise abit (jog/jumping rope/run around), then go fetch my sis, and then another sis from school, and then dinner, then drive them both to tuition if there are any, then stick to books or computer again until late at night. and the cycle repeats itself again and again...

Think i have to spice up my hols abit or i'll regret it... any suggestions? *puppy eyes*