After having 3 tests in a row, and a whole week of frantic studying, doing nothing except stuffing my mind with formulae and equations even when i'm eating, the eraser debris on my desk and papers scribbled and thrown were more than what i can produce in 2 months. All my free time was used up and classes were sacrificed for the sake of the tests. Even to the extend that after the test were all over, i forgot how it was like to be free, and to procrastinate. Like for instance, now, after my monday 4 hours classes (which i din go for the first 2) i felt empty. i don't know wat i should do to kill the rest of the free time. But before the tests, i would think of so many things that i'd glad to indulge in and so many tasks to get involved with. Hope i'll get rid of this emptyness by reading novels. trying to finish off angels and demons so that i can get back to my old rhythm.

merdeka's coming and my roommate's birthday's a day before.. got to get present for her!! >_< and i have a meeting tonight. Well, i guess it's all coming back. i'm going to be really busy after all. *bricked*

for those who had ym-ed or msn-ed me during my study period, i'm so sorry that i din really answer back nicely (mainly use emoticons to reply) this is because my keyboard is on my monitor and i only have my computer table [without keyboard desk] to study >__< so do forgive me and dun think me as being cold k? *puppy eyes*

guess that's it. even if you see me in campus or out, i might be blurry and probably won't notice anyone due to overconsumption of brain capacity so.. do give my a pat on the back or wave at me frantically to get my attention *Bricked*

Google is going for world domination! *shot dead*

yea. i'm fried up there due to overstudying. 3 core midterms in a row is not sth you want to mess with, trust me. i still have 3 days more to study 3 subjects, tests covering 2 horribly unintelligible chapters each. so far i've jz finish 1 chapter of math, and haven done others yet. i will see the grim ripper waving at me on thurs.. if not fri, or even sat, which are my test days. orz. enuf ranting already, if not i'll be slapped and wringled by you guys before my tests XD

why is it public school holiday now?! this is jz so unfair *bricked* yea yea.. i have my share of holidays already.. but that's not considered holiday if you have test after that! TT_TT i'm cracked. ignore me pls k thx bye! Shoot me XD

given a situation, when you are granted a week long holiday, you'd rather..

A: be sick and forced to rest in your home
B: really study for the midterm tests and assignment deadlines after your holiday

well, i got option C, which is all of the above. Sweet. I lost my voice after conducting a meeting on sunday in a really noisy room where the other end can hardly hear what I said, unless 1 knows how to read my lips. After that, my throat felt uncomfortable and got worst on thurs, when we went back home. Just my luck. After seeing the doctor at hometown, i had to fight tremendously against my overwhelming sleepiness so that i can study abit more before i drop dead due to the medication.
so.. i've finished/scanned 3 chapters of micro-p and still 2 more subjects to go. i guess i'm a failure. sigh.

Another situation: if you are diagnosed with terminal disease, would you..

A: sulk at your pitious fate and be in denial
B: recheck to confirm it/get rid of the dreadful uncertainty

for me it's abit of both.

Last time i posted about me going to donate blood in my hometown, and the GH had sent me a letter regarding some problem about my blood. Well, that's half a year ago and i was pronounced clear after doing a retest. Then, overjoyed, i donate blood again, before this trimester started. Again, a letter came to me after that, stating the same issue. I felt like a convict imposed with death sentance. Uncertainty and depression engulfed me, for good. I was diagnosed with Hepetitis C.

"How could this happen to me?!", the very same question asked by those who are declared having left 3 months to live or suddenly caught AIDS. That was a few week before midterm break when i was helplessly asking around for blood test center around melaka. End up, i din go to any of them, because i dun want to spend so much money when i can do the test halfpriced in my hometown (mom got a voucher for Pathlab in Fajah supermarket). It doesn't help if i do the test sooner or later if i really had that virus right, since there's no cure for it. So i force myself to be optimistic and life goes on pretty much.

The few days in between the trip to pathlab and the results announcement was anything but cheerful, tho my throat was getting better. I can't study, and i can't really enjoy reading manga or watching anime at all. All the time i was recalling about the infos about hepetitis C written online and wonder how much the medication for it cost. Well, i'm not really that pessimistic but you really have to be prepared if the worst befalls on you. So.. it's not my fault that i can't finish reading that stupid incomprehendable Electromagnetic. heh.

After days of suspense and uneasiness, today, the result was finally out. There's sth wrong with my liver's enzymes, and i have a bit of urea acid, but.. I'm Cleared of Hepetitis C! YEAH!!! my worst nightmare was gone with the wind. I heaved with great relief, as well as my dad, who went to the gent's straight after the news. Guess his really really worried and i'm so glad i'm ok. the uncertainty and depression vanished in thin air. I'm healthy! tho i've been taking it for granted before this happened, This statement became so precious to me now. So, guys, do care about your health cos it really is the only thing you can have in order to gain other things. So stop taking for granted about your health and start maintaining it! XDDD

Moral of the day: be happy for being healthy and disease free, and work for it!

ok. shit. i have to start studying now if i want to finish my assignment on time. >__< see you guys back in campus! XD